If u possess nothing but only Allah,
u'll have everything. But if u possess everything
but Allah is not with u, then u don't have
anything.


I'm just an ordinary person trying hard to write.
I name the page "Sehijau daun" (As green as leaf)
because I feel that I'm still new in writing.
There are many things that I need to learn
about writing.
I do not usually do this everyday,
but whenever I find something significant to share,
inshaAllah,
I will try my best to lay down my feelings and
tell you what I think about the people and
their environment.


Aspirations: I want to be a good educator and a good writer :)

Hobbies: Reading, writing, cooking and gardening,
I have just bought two pots of plants - a daisy and a rose, and
I'm going to adopt some of my friends' plants too :D


Favourite books:
Laskar Pelangi (Andrea Hirata Seman),
To Sir With Love (E.R. Braithwaite),
Man-eater of Malgudi (R.K. Narayan),
The Undomestic Goddess (Sophie Kinsella),
To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee,
Faisal Tehrani's, Zaid Akhtar's,
Amy Tan's, Jane Austen's,
La Tahzan (Dr Aidh al-Qarni),
Nostalgia Padang (Dzulkarnain Ithnain),
Enid Blyton's, Totto-chan (Tetsuko Kuroyanagi),
Twilight of the Nyonyas (Chin Kee Onn),
etc,etc.etc

Philosophy:
Don't quit, Allah is always there for you!
Be the Best in everything you pursue!
Do not give up until the last buzzer sounds!



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Love starts from eyes...
grows with dreams and end with tears...

but UKHUWWAH starts with Ta'aruf,
grows with Tadhiyah and
everlasting in JANNAH. Ameen


The Nuur of Islam

Erti Hidup Pada Memberi
Tafheem Ul Quran

Nur Sauqeena
Siti Yusrina Nadihah

Teaching and Learning English

Linguistics Zone
English Club
Tune in to Learning

Writers' P.O.V.

Hj Azizi Hj Abdullah
Faisal Tehrani
Nisah Hj Haron
Zaid Akhtar
Andrea Hirata Seman

Pearls of Life

Zaenul Ahmad
Gawtama Bayu


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Rancang dengan apa yang ada di tangan
Bukan yang kita angan-angankan
Ohh... kita membina cita dan harapan
Bukan mimpi dan igauan





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EPILOG SILAM

Dalam mengenang kisah hidup silam
Ku sedar dari kesilapan lalu
Tuhan beratnya dosa-dosaku
Masih adakah ampunan buatku...

Tuhan... dalam menempuh hidup ini
Banyaknya dugaan datang menguji
Tuhan... ada yang dapat kugagahi
Dan ada yang gagal kuhindari

Tuhan dosaku menggunung tinggi
Tapi taubatku tak kutepati
Tuhan... rahmatMu melangit luas
Terlalu sedikit ku bersyukur

Kini ku kembali padaMu
Mengharap maghfirah dariMu
Moga terampunlah dosa-dosaku
Biarpun ujian melanda,
Ku tetap berkasih padaMu
Kerna kuyakin kasihMu
Kekal tiada sudahnya.




One Thousand Million Smile

by Allahyarham Sudirman

There's a gift I'd like to give you
That can't be bought or sold
A ray of sunshine across the waters
That comes straight from the soul

Let us join our hands together
To bind the colours of our skin
A rainbow under GOD's Great heaven
A sign that love will always win

One thousand million smiles
I bring to you across the miles
In my land of sunshine
Or in your land of snow
Makes no difference where you are
If you let your feeling show

One thousand million ways
To love each other every day
For the poet and the old man
For the mother and the child
These One thousand million smiles

If the world is full of sorrow
Then what's the meaning of life
If war's the master of the house
And hunger is his wife ooo...

But a shining bridge of lovin' smiles
And tender helping hands
Will bind all men on earth together
And will forever stand

So here I Stand with heart in hand
I bring this gift from my homeland
So take these smiles and sweets hellos
Keep then in your heart where ever you may go


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Damba Cinta Mu
dendangan kumpulan nasyid Raihan

Tuhanku ampunkanlah segala dosaku
Tuhanku maafkanlah kejahilan hambaMu

Ku sering melanggar laranganMu
Dalam sedar ataupun tidak
Ku sering meninggalkan suruhanMu
Walau sedar aku milikMu

Bilakah diri ini kan kembali
Kepada fitrah sebenar
Pagi ku ingat petang ku alpa
Begitulah silih berganti

Oh Tuhanku Kau pimpinlah diri ini
Yang mendamba cintaMu
Aku lemah aku jahil
Tanpa pimpinan dariMu

Ku sering berjanji depanMu
Sering jua ku memungkiri
Ku pernah menangis keranaMu
Kemudian ketawa semula

Kau Pengasih Kau Penyayang Kau Pengampun
Kepada hamba-hambaMu
Selangkah ku kepadaMu
Seribu langkah Kau pada ku

Tuhan diri ini tidak layak ke syurga Mu
Tapi tidak pula aku sanggup ke neraka Mu

Ku takut kepadaMu
Ku harap jua padaMu
Moga ku kan selamat dunia akhirat
Seperti rasul dan sahabat



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SUCCESS

Success will come
to those who dream the impossible,
who willingly make sacrifices,
Who refuse to accept defeat,
who keep going
though the path gets tougher by day,
You are the person who knows
what success means,
You've devoted yourself to
accomplishing the goals you believe in,
You are not afraid to be a little different,
but continue to find solutions to your dreams,
You have a strong sense of purpose,
readily accepting challenges along the way,
You are succces...
Keep believing in yourself
and find happiness in the days ahead....


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TO REALIZE

To realize
The value of a sister,
Ask someone Who doesn't have one.

To realize
The value of ten years:
Ask a newly Divorced couple.

To realize
The value of four years:
Ask a graduate.

To realize
The value of one year:
Ask a student who Has failed a final exam.

To realize
The value of nine months:
Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born.

To realize
The value of one month:
Ask a mother who has given birth to
A premature baby.

To realize
The value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize
The value of one hour:
Ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.

To realize
The value of one minute:
Ask a person
Who has missed the train, bus or plane.

To realize
The value of one-second:
Ask a person
Who has survived an accident.

To realize
The value of one millisecond:
Ask the person
who has won a silver medal in the Olympics

Time waits for no one.
Treasure every moment you have.
You will treasure it even more when
you can share it with someone special.

To realize the value of a friend:
Lose one.

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A story of life..................................

An old American Muslim lived on a farm in the
mountains of eastern Kentucky
with his young grandson.
Each morning Grandpa was up early
sitting at the kitchen table
reading his Quraan. His grandson wanted
to be just like him and tried
to imitate him in every way he could.

One day the grandson asked,
"Papa, I try to read the Quraan just
like you but I don't understand it,and what I do
understand I forget as soon as I close the book.
What good does reading the Quraan do?"

The Grandfather quietly turned from putting coal in
the stove and replied,
"Take this coal basket down to the river
and bring me back a basket of water."

The boy did as he was told,
but all the water
leaked out before he got back to the house.
The grandfather laughed and said,
"You'll have to move a little faster next time,
" and sent him back to the river
with the basket to try again.

This time the boy ran faster,
but again the basket
was empty before he returned home.
Out of breath, he told his
grandfather that it was impossible
to carry water in a basket,
and he went to get a bucket instead.

The old man said,
"I don't want a bucket of water; I
want a basket of water.
You're just not trying hard enough,"
and he went out the door
to watch the boy try again.
At this point, the boy
knew it was impossible,
but he wanted to show his grandfather
that even if he ran as fast as he could,
the water would leak out
before he got back to the house.
The boy again dipped the basket into
river and ran hard,
but when he reached his grandfather
the basket was again empty.

Out of breath, he said,
"See Papa, it's useless!"
"So you think it is useless?"
The old man said,
"Look at the basket."

The boy looked at the basket
and for the first time
realized that the basket was different.
It had been transformed from
a dirty old coalbasket
and was now clean, inside and out.


A friend forwarded this story to me.
So I don't know whether this is true or not.
But, it tells us that
Al-Quraan has the healing power
to purify dirty souls.
Wallahu'alam.

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I would like to share with you guys
the lyrics of the theme song of
my favourite anime, Fruit Basket.
The animation is about Tohru,
the protagonist in the story.


FRUITS BASKET

I was so happy, you were laughing
With a smile that melts everything away
Spring is still far away, inside the cold earth,
Waiting for the time to sprout

For instance, even if today is painful
And yesterday's wounds remain
I want to believe that I can free my heart and go on

I cannot be reborn
But I can change as I go on, so
Let's stay together always

For instance, even if today is painful
Someday it will become a warm memory
If you leave everything up to your heart

I understand the meaning our living here
It is to know the joy of having been born
Let's stay together always


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Sebuah puisi lama, hasil nukilan
ketika masih berada di UKM.

HAKIKAT PERJUANGAN

Manusia selalu berkata bahawa
hidup itu satu perjuangan,
Tapi pernahkah ia terfikir harga yang
harus dibayar untuk membeli sebuah
perjuangan?
Lidah petah berkata,
tangan menghayun ke kanan dan ke kiri,
Pernahkah terlintas
hakikat perjuangan di hati naluri?
Di sana sini manusia sibuk bermegah diri,
Melaungkan itu dan ini,
Tidak terfikirkah
amanat Allah yang ditanggung selama ini,
Sedangkan lidah asyik berbicara,
Sehingga pesanan Rasulullah
dianggap enteng cuma,
Tidakkah terfikir balasan dan azab di neraka,
Atau sudah yakin diri akan mendiami syurga,
Sedarlah hanya Allah Penentu Segala.
Banyak orang ingin berjuang....
Tapi sayang sekadar
melukut di tepian gantang,
Melepaskan batuk di tangga,
Tanpa memahami...
erti perjuangan yang sebenarnya,
Kabur dengan hala tuju perjuangannya,
Hanya melihat, mendengar dan menurut,
Tanpa menimbangkan dengan akal,
Ingat, anugerah Allah bukan untuk dipersia,
Gunakanlah ia dengan sebaik mungkin,

Ayuhai sahabat,
Jangan biarkan mindamu
dijajah sewenangnya,
Fikir dulu sebelum bertindak,
Rasulullah sering berpesan,
Janganlah ada di antara kamu
menjadi manusia yang tidak berpendirian..
Berpegang teguh
pada Al-Quran dan As-sunnah
Insya-Allah,
dirimu tidak terkapai dilambung ombak.

Sesungguhnya
perjuangan menuntut pengorbanan,
Takwa, Ikhlas dan Sabar,
Disatukan menjadi kekuatan,
Perkukuhkan dirimu dengan ilmu di dada,
Hanya orang berilmu mampu menilai,
Hakikat perjuangan yang sebenarnya,
Percayalah ia bukan mudah,
Menuntut segala pemahaman
zahir dan batin,
Berjuanglah sebagai hamba Allah,
Yang hanya
ingin mencari keredaan-Nya.
Jangan anggap dirimu yang paling baik,
Andai imanmu
tidak seteguh Saidina Abu Bakar,
Atau dirimu
tidak seberani Khalid Al-Walid
di medan perjuangan,
Usahlah
menabur kata-kata nista tentang orang lain,
Hisab dirimu,
sejauh mana hubunganmu dengan Al-Khaliq...
Jadilah pejuang Islam yang tulen,
Istiqamah dengan perjuangan,
Beriman dengan hati,
Menilai dengan ilmu,
Membuktikan dengan amalan,
Itulah hakikat perjuangan............

NUR ISLAMI

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Another poem that appreciates women
but until now, I am unsure of the writer
of this particular poem. If anybody knows,
please let me know OK,
Jazakallahu khairan kathira.


WANITA : AKAL SENIPIS RAMBUTNYA

Jangankan lelaki biasa,
Nabi pun terasa sunyi tanpa wanita,
Tanpa mereka, hati, fikiran,
dan perasaan lelaki akan resah,
Masih mencari walaupun ada segalanya...

Apa yang tidak ada di syurga,
namun Adam tetap rindukan Hawa,
Pada wanitalah lelaki memanggil
ibu, isteri atau pun puteri,
Dijadikan wanita dari
tulang rusuk yang bengkok,
Untuk diluruskan oleh lelaki,
Tapi kalau lelaki sendiri tidak lurus...
Mana mungkin kayu yang bengkok
menghasilkan bayang yang lurus,
Luruskan wanita dengan jalan yang ditunjukkan Allah,
Kerana mereka dicipta
sebegitu rupa oleh Allah.

Didiklah mereka dengan panduan dariNya,
Janganlah cuba
menjinakkan mereka dengan harta,
Kerana nantinya mereka semakin liar,
Janganlah
menghiburkan mereka dengan kecantikan,
Kerana nantinya mereka semakin menderita,
Yang sementara itu
tidak dapat menyelesaikan masalah.

Kenalkan mereka kepada Allah,
Zat yang kekal,
Di situlah punca kekuatan dunia,
Akal senipis rambutnya,
tebalkanlah ia dengan ilmu,
Hati serapuh kaca,
kuatkanlah ia dengan iman,
Perasaan selembut sutera,
hiasilah ia dengan akhlak,
Suburkanlah ia,
kerana dari situlah nantinya
mereka akan lihat,
Nilaian dan keadilan Tuhan...

Bisikkan ke telinga mereka bahawa,
Kelembutan bukan satu kelemahan,
Ia bukan diskriminasi Tuhan,
Sebaliknya di situlah kasih sayang Tuhan,
Wanita yang lupa hakikat kejadiannya,
Pasti tidak terhibur dan tidak menghiburkan...

Tanpa ilmu, iman dan akhlak,
Mereka tidak akan lurus
bahkan akan membengkok,
Itulah akibatnya
andainya wanita tidak kenal Tuhannya
Bila wanita derhaka,
dunia lelaki akan huru-hara,
Lelaki pula
janganlah mengharapkan ketaaatan
tetapi binalah kepimpinan,
Pastikan
sebelum memimpin wanita menuju Ilahi,
Pimpinlah diri sendiri kepadaNya,
Jinakkan diri pada Allah,
Nescaya akan jinaklah segala-galanya,

Di bawah pimpinanmu..
Janganlah mengharapkan isteri semulia
Fatimah Az-Zahra’
Andai peribadimu tidak sehebat
Saidina Ali Karamallahu Wajhah...



Woman Work

I’ve got the children to tend
The clothes to mend
The floor to mop
The food to shop
Then the chicken to fry
The baby to dry
I got company to feed
The garden to weed
I’ve got the shirts to press
The tots to dress
The cane to be cut
I gotta clean up this hut
Then see about the sick
And the cotton to pick.

Shine on me, sunshine
Rain on me, rain
Fall softly, dewdrops
And cool my brow again.

Storm, blow me from here
With your fiercest wind
Let me float across the sky
‘Til I can rest again.

Fall gently, snowflakes
Cover me with white
Cold icy kisses and
Let me rest tonight.
Sun, rain, curving sky
Mountain, oceans, leaf and stone
Star shine, moon glow
You’re all that I can call my own.

By Maya Angelou (b. 1928)

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The Value of Mother

A little boy came up to his mother
in the kitchen one evening while
she was fixing supper,
and he handed her
a piece of paper that
he had been writing on.
After his mom dried her hands
on an apron, she read it, a
nd this is what it said:

For cutting the grass: $5.00
For cleaning up
my room this week: $1.00
For going to the store for you: .50
Babysitting my kid brother
while you went shopping: .25
Taking out the garbage: $1.00
For getting a good report card: $5.00
For cleaning up and
raking the yard: $2.00
Total owed: $14.75

Well, his mother looked at
him standing there,
the boy could see the memories
flashing through her mind.
She picked up the pen,
turned over the paper he'd written on,
and this is what she wrote:

For 9 months I carried you while
you were growing inside me: No Charge.
For all the nights that I've sat up with you,
doctored and prayed for you: No Charge.
For all the trying times, and all the tears
that you've caused through the years: No Charge.
For all the nights that were filled with dread,
and for the worries I knew were ahead: No Charge.
For the toys, food, clothes,
and even wiping your nose: No Charge,
Son, When you add it up,
the cost of my love is: No Charge.


When the boy finished reading
what his mother had written,
there were big tears in his eyes,
and he looked straight at his mother
and said, "Mum, I sure do love you".

And then he took the pen
and in great big letters he wrote:
"PAID IN FULL"

"Your Lord ( ALLAH ) has decreed that
you should worship nothing except Him,
and show) kindness to your parents,
whether one or both of them attain old age
(while they are) still with you,
never say to them 'Shame! nor scold either of them.
Speak to them in a generous fashion.
Protect them carefully and say:
'My Lord, show them mercy,
just as they cared for me as a little child'"
[Surah 17:23-24].


Sahabat, tanpamu, perjuangan ini tidak bermakna.....

Teman Sejati (Brothers)

Selama ini
Ku mencari-cari
Teman yang sejati
Buat menemani
Perjuangan suci
Bersyukur kini
PadaMu Illahi
Teman yang dicari
Selama ini
Telah ku temui

Dengannya di sisi
Perjuangan ini
Senang diharungi
Bertambah murni
Kasih Illahi
Kepada Mu Allah

Ku panjatkan doa
Agar berkekalan
Kasih sayang kita
Kepada mu teman
Ku pohon sokongan
Pengorbanan dan pengertian
Telah ku ungkapkan
Segala-galanya...

Kepada Mu Allah
Ku pohon restu
Agar kita kekal bersatu
Kepada mu teman
Teruskan perjuangan
Pengorbanan dan kesetiaan
Telah ku ungkapkan
Segala-galanya
Itulah tandanya
Kejujuran kita




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Monday, August 18, 2008
It's not that difficult

Last week...

"Okay, I'll rewrite the essay for you...."
"Thank you... so much... er... when are you going to update your blog...? It's been a month I think...."
"Hmmm... later.... nothing significant.... people don't usually read anymore... everyone's busy... and... I really don't have anything to write about... "
"It's not that difficult...."
"Hmmmmm..."

Last three days....

"Oh... very nice... thank you for helping me out! What are you going to do today?"
"Hmmm, I'm just going to finish the research instruments... you know... rephrasing some words.... and then maybe later, I'll do some grocery shopping..."
"Any new entries for your blog? I miss your writings, you know...."
".............. (smiling)"
"Hey, it's not that difficult, give it a try... it's been a while..."
"Okay...."

Today....

"Hey Mel, what happen...."
"Oh I slept late last night.... tired... I need to write something in my diary - the progress report..."
"Hmmm... now that you mention writing... why not write something short and sweet for your blog..? It's not...."
"Okay, stop! I know what you're going to say.... (laughing)"

Happy now????


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Thursday, July 17, 2008
Baking lessons...

Salaam and hello everyone...

It's been a long time indeed after my last entry. I must admit that laziness had shrouded my brain cells and prevented me from writing new entries hahaha...

Recently, I've been trying my hands at baking. When I was in Part 5 during my undergrad years, I remember Miss J asking us whether we know how to cook, bake or sew... I flinched a little because though I love cooking but I seldom bake. So over here since we have a good kitchen with built in ovens, the opportunities are coming in with open hands...

I did bake some moist chocolate cakes and Malaysian 'pizza' when I was still in Malaysia but I have never baked a cheese cake... So, one day, I decided to bake a simple plain cheese cake with cream cracker crust. It was 'okay' because I forgot to chill the crust first thus some of the cracker crumbs swam in my cake batter... shame... hahaha... the second attempt was better but I forgot to butter my baking dish!!! So, you can guess what happened hahaha.. but the cake turned out well but since it was a simple plain cheese cake without crust, my friends and I ate it with some slices of pineapple.

Yesterday, while trying to make pizza dough, I accidentally killed most of the yeast hahaha... I just realized it this evening when I talked to one of my friends here, I told her, I was wondering why the dough did not rise. Then, she asked me, did I put sugar when mixing the yeast with water? Yes, I did. She continued, "did you use hot water?" "Yes." Then it dawned on me... I've become a murderer, yes, yeast murderer hahahaha... Well, I'm not going to quit, I'll try again later.

I wish I am as patient as when I'm baking when I pursue my readings :(

That is definitely another story...


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Thursday, June 26, 2008
Drama di pagi yang hening

Ekstrak perbualan Sasa dengan ibunya pada suatu pagi yang hening...

"Ni mak nak pesan, tak payah lah susah-susah pegi rumah atuk kamu tu... tak dapat apa pun..."

"Takpe lah mak, dapat pahala, mulia di sisi Allah apabila menghormati orang tua!"

"Entah lah, gara-gara atuk kamu, semua sedara-mara menyalahkan abah kamu, sebab abah kamu buat keputusan nak berpindah dari Tanjung Kasih ke tempat yang dekat sikit dengan pejabat dia... jadi atuk kamu kecil hati laa, terus pegi canang kat Mak Lang kamu... lepas tu, Mak Lang kamu pulak, tak siasat terus marah-marah kat mak, bukannya nak marah kat abang dia, mak pula yang dipersalahkan... abah kamu pindah pasal dah tak larat sangat nak berulang-alik dari Tanjung Kasih ke Ayer Masin! Jauh tahu tak! Ayah kamu bukannya 25 tahun, 55 tahun, dah pencen, tahu...."

"Tahu mak....:

"Tahu, takpe, jadi...."

"Takpe lah mak, Allah tahu lagi Maha Mengetahui! Kepada Nya kita berserah, jiwa dan raga. Allah tidak akan membebankan hambaNya jika hamba tersebut tidak mampu. Sabar lah, kebenaran akan timbul jua dan janganlah kita membelakangkan orang tua... mak jugak yang ajar orang dulu jangan lupa ibubapa, betul tak mak...?"

"Hmmm betullah tu...."

"Ini lah baru mak Sasa.... sayang mak..."

Sang ibu hanya mampu menguntum senyum sambil memeluk erat anak gadisnya. Termpempan seketika. Sepi. Lantas helaian ingatannya tersingkap kepada ceramah agama yang baru sahaja dihadiri minggu lepas. Sang penceramah mengingatkan hadirin:

Firman Allah Ta'ala dalam surah al-Baqarah ayat 286:

“Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya. Ia mendapat pahala (dari kebajikan) yang diusahakannya dan ia mendapat siksa (dari kejahatan) yang dikerjakannya. (Mereka berdo`a): "Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau hukum kami jika kami lupa atau kami tersalah. Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau bebankan kepada kami beban yang berat sebagaimana Engkau bebankan kepada orang-orang yang sebelum kami. Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau pikulkan kepada kami apa yang tak sanggup kami memikulnya. Beri maaflah kami; ampunilah kami; dan rahmatilah kami. Engkaulah Penolong kami, maka tolonglah kami terhadap kaum yang kafir.”

Wallahu'alam.


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Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Merindu "Nostalgia Padang"

Kebelakangan ini, hujan lebat beserta angin kencang melanda bumi Auckland. Dingin dan segar bersatu dalam irama yang mengasyikkan. Jadi rindu pada bumi Malaysia. Entah lah, memang benar kata orang, kalau mahu menghargai sesuatu, perlu merasa kehilangan. Jengah sebentar ke blog penulis Tawarikh Cinta, Nisah Hj Haron, sarat dengan memori manis majlis penyampaian Hadiah Sastera Kumpulan Utusan. Sekalung tahniah kepada beliau yang meraih tempat kedua kategori novel remaja. Bila terbaca pasal HSKU, teringat pula pada novel Nostalgia Padang, karya Dzulkarnain Ithnain yang juga meraih hadiah sastera kumpulan utusan, tetapi maaf, saya tidak ingat tahunnya.

Novel Nostalgia Padang adalah antara novel yang menjadi pilihan untuk mengasah minda waktu masih bergelar remaja. Pertama kali bersua dengan novel tersebut adalah ketika masih menuntut di Tingkatan 5, di salah sebuah sekolah berasrama penuh di Kelantan. Kebetulan ketika itu waktu 'prep', sahabat saya, Azimah, menghulurkan novel tersebut kepada saya seraya berkata,"Best novel ni, mesti hang suka punya, cuba lah baca!" Hmmm, baca punya baca, terus jatuh cinta, malah selepas itu terus membeli pula senaskah novel tersebut.

Plot ceritanya melingkari fakta sejarah berkenaan satu kawasan yang dinamakan "Padang", di salah sebuah daerah di negeri Johor. Protagonisnya, Muhammad Mukti adalah seorang pejuang yang berasal dari Jawa (tak dapat nak nyatakan secara khusus di mana, sebab telah lebih 10 tahun saya tidak membacanya) yang akhirnya ditangkap penjajah Belanda dan dihukum buang negeri ke Afrika. Kemudian, watak tersebut dibebaskan dan beliau telah merantau sehingga ke bumi Makkah al-Mukaramah dan akhirnya kembali ke Tanah Melayu.

Saya benar-benar ingin kembali membaca novel ini tetapi, saya telah meminjamkan novel ini kepada seorang teman dan sehingga kini, kerana sudah lama tidak berhubung dengannya (kira-kira lapan tahun), saya tidak tahu bagaimana untuk menghubungi beliau. Hmmm, selepas ini, harus lebih cepat dan tangkas ke pesta buku untuk mencari naskah yang baru. Itu lah, bila berjauhan dari Malaysia ni, macam-macam yang diidamkan...  


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Saturday, June 21, 2008
A crap that I worked out...

Once upon a time, in the the golden years of Meranti empire, there was a glamorous institution called Utama Indra Telipuk Melati which trained young adults in various courses such as trade, 'waqaf' management, weaving, calculus, accounting, construction, and language teaching. Since Englais was the world lingua franca at that time, many civillians were trying very hard to master the language. Moreover, Englais had been declared as the second language in the empire.

Thus, lessons of Englais were provided in many institutions in order to encourage the young generation to be well proficient in the language. Since then, Utama Indra Telipuk Melati, an established higher learning institution which had become students' first preference after finishing eleven years of 'pondok', used Englais as their medium of instructions.  Therefore, teachers of Englais were in highly demand and this phenomenon brought to the creation of Englais teachers foundation programme.

Many hopeful parents and families began sending their kids to study under this programme, hoping that some day, these kids will become teachers of Englais. The programme however did not guarantee that students could later continue their degree study in the teachers of Englais as a second language. This programme had gone through several changes and now, it was proclaimed as a programme that trained students and later these students based on merits will be selected to continue under degree programme of teachers of Englais as a second language not necessarily in Utama Indra Telipuk Melati but also other higher learning institutions or other programmes that related to the use of Englais in all higher learning institutions.

Mademoisselle Elisza was one of the teachers who used to teach the Englais teachers foundation programme. She was later awarded a scholarship to study overseas and thus had to leave her beloved students. The students continued their study as usual and from time to time, Mademoisselle Elisza was well informed by her students how they were doing. Months went by and later the results of admission to degree programmes were announced and alas, not even one of Mademoisselle Elisza's students were accepted into teachers of Englais as a second language programme in Utama Indra Telipuk Melati! There were others who managed to get offers to continue in the same course but they would continue in other institutions. Most of the students were offered to study the "sastra" of Englais, professional communication of Englais and even international trade! They were "interesting", the courses that were offered to her students, especially the ones with business domain as minor and international business management! She obviously had no clues why such courses were offered to her students. Does this imply anything?

Her students told her the surprising and shocking news. She was very sad and surprised but honestly, there was nothing that Mademoisselle Elisza could do except praying for better consequences for her beloved students.

You know what, if I were Mademoisselle Elisza, this is what I will suggest to my students:

"Dearest all, take this as a challenge. Try looking at it as a bigger picture. Stop brooding but go and find out what the courses offered to you are all about. Read the prospectus, study the benefits of the course, identify things that may sustain your interests and motivation in the course (enough to sustain your motivation until you complete the course), you may want to plead an admission to the previous programme (you know what I'm referring to) but it's not going to be easy. You may require recommendations. Count your blessings that you are finally accepted into varsities. I empathise your situation, I was in your situation before... and therefore, I hope that all will be fine for you. My doa is always with you all."


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Dad, you are one of a kind...

I know it's getting harder to stick to the routine I have promised, writing an entry once in three days. I have just found something interesting for my work lately. As usual, I cannot unveil that to you, no, not until I have completed everything :)

When I took a good look at my blog entries yesterday, I realise that I have never written anything much (or none) about my wonderful and charming dad. My dad used to be temperamental when he was young. He got easily worked up over certain things that displease him. Nevertheless, nowadays he says that he is much more patient and I agree with that. He says that gardening helps a lot to mould his patience, hmmm wait, not just gardening, but also flowers arrangement. You may want to be surprised at this but yes, that's my dad. He is very handy with flowers and knows exactly how to fashion them into delightful arrangements. That does not stop there. He is also able to decorate wedding platters (dulang hantaran perkahwinan), design bunga telur and sew drapes. He also has the knack for garden landscaping.

I love children's (or adolescents') movies like HomeAlone, Secret Garden, Little Princess, Fly Away Home, Matilda, the first Harry Potter, etc and it's all because of my dad. When I was very little, he encouraged me to watch a lot of English animations - The Disneys, all-time favourite "My Little Pony and Friends", "CareBears", "Gumby", "Smurfs"; just naming a few and chidren's movies. In the early 90s, CDs were very rare and obviously no DVDs hahaha, so my dad rented a lot of videotapes for us to watch after dinner. One of them that captured my interest was Secret Garden (Universal Studio). I still remember trying very hard to own a CD or DVD of Secret Garden; searching for it everywhere when I was still in Malaysia. And you know what, I've found one here in Auckland :) So, in short, along with my mother, my dad is also responsible for instilling my interest in English language.

Being far away from home makes me think a lot of my father. As a child, my father has his own interesting and unique stories. Probably in the future I'd like to write the stories... hmmm for now I can only dream :) At first when I thought I would write about him, I had a lot in my mind to say. Now, I find that I don't have much to say or my heart is too 'stiff' to pour out everything. One thing that I am very sure, my dad loves us both, my sister and me. Dad, we love you too. It's still not too late to wish, "Happy Father's Day!" Thank you dad, for everything that you have done.


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Sunday, June 15, 2008
Inspiration, is it needed?

I feel healthy and fresh today, especially after a good walk to Newmarket's Warehouse via Auckland Domain. Before we reached there, my friend and I decided to stop for a while at the Winter Garden to take a look if there are new plants and flowers displayed. Not much change.

I am still searching for some good angles for my "writing". What writing? Hmmm, I don't feel like disclosing it here. I feel quite spaced out and wish to fly somewhere and be alone for some time. I understand that most people expect only the best from me and that is quite, not quite, it's indeed a pressure. Thus, to lessen some of this pressure, I wrote this and I don't know what to name it, maybe you can help me?

Silence

Not even the tiniest sound of papers rustling

 

Pause

 

Slowly…

A hand moved to the nearest shelf

A book was picked up

A page was selected

A paragraph was spotted

Work began

 

Pause

 

Then…

A pen was picked up

A word was written on a paper

A sentence was created

A paragraph was tailored

 

Pause

 

Silence again

Clouds of doubt began circling the mind and soul

No passion

No vibe

No sparks

No inspiration

Another string of cliché produced

 

 

Pause

 

Knees were unbend

The body stood up

Walked away from the desk

The mouth took some sips of cold coffee

The body walked back to the desk

Facing the notebook

Clicking mouse

Keypads hit

Words streaming…

 

Pause

 

Words eliminated, substituted

Again and again and again

When will it end?

 

At first I wanted to write the poem in Malay, but I must admit that my figurative Malay has gone a bit rusty for these couple of years and I don't want to insult my fellow Malay linguits and literary writers for writing a crap. Of course a poem or any puisi can contain anything that comes from the heart.

Why do I write this? I am badly in need of abundance of inspiration to continue doing my work. I remember watching Music and Lyrics and there's one phrase uttered by Alex Fletcher (Hugh Grant) in the movie: "Only amateurs need inspirations." I certainly disagree because I believe everybody needs inspiration, something that can sustain their ideas before they are able to transform the ideas into theories, powerful work of art, formula, or whatever! [ I know my students will gladly tease me for using this word! :D ]

As someone who believes in God, I am certainly in need of inspiration of which I will seek by bringing myself closer to God, insyaAllah. My beloved friends and students, do pray for me yaa...


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Thursday, June 12, 2008
What is Love?

What is Love?
Love is sharing
sharing what?
Sharing everything.
What is everything?
Oh, well yeah, everything...
Such as?
Problems, woes, happiness, bla,bla,bla,...
Is that all?
Well, yes...
What about interest, dreams?
Hmmm, maybe.... my partner and I, we lead our own career
What about giving supports, motivation
Sounds conventional....
No, it's not...

Well, I say... 
 Love is all about getting a partner,
live a good family life, have kids,
share the burden, yeah...
Now that sounds conventional!
Really?
Yes.
Love is all about sharing:
dreams
interest
Weakness
Strength
conflicts
fear
tolerance
ambiguity
ignorance
knowledge
wisdom

and...

Imperfection

and...

A Vow of Commitment

Dan di antara tanda-tanda kekuasaan-Nya ialah Dia menciptakan untukmu isteri-isteri
dari jenismu sendiri, supaya kamu cenderung dan merasa tenteram kepadanya,
dan dijadikan-Nya di antaramu rasa kasih dan sayang. Sesungguhnya pada yang
demikian itu benar-benar terdapat tanda-tanda bagi kaum yang berfikir.
(Surah Ar Rum, ayat 21)

 

"Mencintai itu tidak sekadar memberi, tetapi menjadi. Ikut menjadi apa yang kita cintai. Suatu kemustahilan untuk menyatukan dua hati. Namun cinta yang suci, akan berani membawanya ke pernikahan abadi, untuk selanjutkan kita serahkan kepada Ilahi."


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Tuesday, June 10, 2008
If it's not meant to be...

Thousands, zillions in fact, zillions apologies to my dear blog, I have totally abandoned you in about ten days in June. I have reasons for doing this:

1) I was not well for over a week, cold, fever, stomachache

2) I was not inspired to write anything

3) I was very busy with assignments that I don't want to think of other things

4) I was not in a good mood :(

But now, alhamdulillah, I'm much better and will start writing as usual, an entry in three days time.

Today, I want to tell you a story. It was about a little peasant girl who loved to plant roses. She planted many kinds of roses, ranging from different species and colours. Since she lived in a highland area, where the weather is not too hot and too cold, the roses grew and grew into a beautiful nice garden. Like the beautiful garden, the girl herself grew into becoming a very lovely young maiden.

One day, a young man came and saw her beautiful garden. Since he came from a very faraway land, he decided to stay nearby for some time in order to see more of the country. The young man came everyday to visit the girl and her family and soon they fell in love. With the blessings of the girl's parents, they finally got married.Two years went by and the husband decided to bring the girl back to his hometown. The girl had no choice but to follow and obey her husband's wishes. She was very sad to leave the garden that she had been nurturing since she was very little. So, she brought some pots of roses to plant in her new future home.

The new home was lovely. It was in a village, somewhere in the southwest of the country. However, the climate was hot and humid. The lovely lady planted her pots of roses and continued to water them everyday. She did this religiously for many many years. She was now with two young children. She was happy but was not as happy when she was in her hometown. Her family of two expanded but sadly her roses remain as small plants. The flowers produced were small and lack fragant. But she never lost hope. She continued to nurture her rose plants, hoping that some day they will bloom into a beautiful garden. Her children now were in their teenage years but still her roses remain the same.

One sunny afternoon, as she laid back on a comfy chair near the window, her husband came to her with some pots of bougainvillea, jasmine, hibiscus and a few other flowering plants.

"My dearest, I know how much you love the roses but I don't think you'll grow them into the garden you are hoping. It's not meant to be, the climate's here is too hot. Why don't you try your green hands at these?"

He was pointing to the pots of plants on the floor. The wife smiled and nodded. So she tried and yes, she finally got her garden but not a garden of roses. A much greener and more beautiful  lovely garden of many other kinds of flowers. She still planted her roses but now her roses were accompanied with other beautiful flower plants as well. She felt a lot happier and her garden continued to bloom and bloom until she died...

"When one door of happiness is closed, there are many others which are still open, if it's not meant to be, it will not be..."

p/s I'm sorry if the story bores you... it just came out of my mind :D


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Saturday, May 31, 2008
Masa tidak akan menunggu

Dalam diam dengan kesibukan mengejar waktu menyiapkan tugasan yang harus dihantar semalam (Jumaat, 30 Mei 2008), terbiar, berkubur sepi lah blog ni sekejap dan hari ini pun sebenarnya masih banyak kerja. Malah secara jujurnya, tak tahu nak tulis apa hari ini.

Cuma, apa kata kita lihat bingkisan diari yang hampir seminggu (ini bukan info diari terperinci ya) :-

Isnin (26 Mei 2008)

Bangun pagi, badan masih letih kerana penangan Pesta Makanan, mengemaskini 'outline' tugasan 722 dan menyambung pembacaan artikel-artikel berkaitan. Dalam pukul 3 ptg mengemas bilik, menambah satu entri di blog, dll. kira-kira jam 5ptg bertolak ke rumah Kak Tun. Pulang dari rumah Kak Tun, keletihan, edit blog, tidur...

Selasa (27 Mei 2008)

"struggling with assignment", ada kelas 711, kelas 711 yang terakhir bersama Profesor tersohor Department of Applied Language Studies and Linguistics - Prof Rod Ellis. Pada malam itu, otak sudah beku, maka berhenti sebentar daripada membaca research articles yang berjela-jela itu.

Rabu (28 Mei 2008)

Masih lagi "struggle with assignment", pergi awal ke kampus kerana mahu singgah di library yang byk buku best tu, alhamdulillah, bersua lah dengan satu buku yang mahu dicari. Terus ke kelas 732, juga merupakan kelas terakhir 732 semester ini, sedihnya... sebab kelas ni best! Cikgu nya, Dr Helen Basturkmen, sangat berilmu dalam soal-soal melakukan penyelidikan... Qualitative, Quantitative, everything that has to do with research!

Khamis (29 Mei 2008)

Demam!!! Ujian Allah. Lepas tu, ada pulak buku yang di "recall" sampai di City Library, kerana buku itu adalah salah satu bacaan penting untuk tugasan 722, maka digagahkan juga diri ini ke library. Alhamdulillah, buku yang nampak saja kecil di luar, tetapi besar di dalam, siapa yang tulis? siapa lagi, "ayahanda" Rod Ellis laaa....

Jumaat (30 Mei 2008)

Alhamdulillah, tugasan siap dilakukan, pening pulak bila mengedit, sekejap nak buat line graph, sekejap column, sekejap pie chart!!! akhirnya buat line graph coz nak jimat colour cartridge, lagi pun (ceh... ini nak memvalidasikan alasan ni!!) lagi pun... line graph lebih sesuai dengan tema tugasan ni... apa ya tajuk nya? Mana boleh bagi tau!!! Kena lah belajar rajin-rajin, habiskan ijazah pertama dulu, lepas tu buat Ijazah Sarjana, baru lah kita boleh bagitau :D

Cebisan-cebisan diari di atas hanya lah contoh untuk menunjukkan masa tidak akan menunggu kita, setiap saat harus digunakan dengan sebaik mungkin!

"Demi masa! Sesungguhnya manusia itu sering di dalam kerugian. Melainkan orang-orang yang beriman dan beramal soleh yang saling berpesan-pesan dengan kebenaran dan yang saling berpesan-pesan dengan kesabaran" Surah al-asr

Surah yang nampak pendek daripada pandangan mata manusia yang lemah, tetapi isi dan penjelasannya panjang... sarat dengan kalam Allah. Sama-sama lah kita berpesan-pesan.

Wallahu'alam

 


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